Monday, July 25, 2005

Id

My freshman year at LSU my buddy and I are about to go out and he tells me, " You've got id." I looked at him with a puzzled look on my face and asked, " What the fuck is Id?" He laughs and says, "don't worry you've got it. I show you tonight what I am talking about." That night we went to bar in tigertown called Fred's. As we walked in we noticed there was a lot of guys which was unusal because Fred's is always packed with girls on the weekend. In the back there was a band playing so we grab a drink and and sat in the back to see who was there. My buddy turns to me and says, "See that guy over there? He does not have Id." He was pointing a guy standing at the bar trying to buy a girl a drink. My buddy looks at me and says, "watch this." My buddy walks up to the girls says something as she recieves her drink from the guy, she picks it up and walks toward me with my buddy. He looks at me and say, "Hey Rhett meet Cindy." He leans toward me and says, " That's Id."
Id is born into everyman but not every man has the same amount of Id. Some have a lot and some have a little. It is extremely hard to gain Id, but extremely easy to lose it. Guys who have Id don't have to use pick up lines or dress extremely nice. Guys with Id don't have to throw money around, and they don't have to brag about how many girls they get. Guys who have Id get girls to attach to them. It is hard to explain what Id is but if you have it you know you do and if you lose it you know that too.
I lost it and I can tell you when I lost it too. After I moved home from Baton Rouge, but not right away it gradually went away. As the year progressed I put Id away in relationships, bad choice because three heart breaks later and two and half years pass I am back to where I started and lost the Id. a couple of weeks ago I was rejected by ex, meet two really good looking girls and didn't get a number, and meet another girl only to find out at the end of the night she had a boyfriend. This past weekend I got shot down twice, sat across from a girl who I have had a crush on since I was 16 and didn't say anything, and hook up with an Irish girl only to find out she hook up with someone else later that night. I lost Id.
Most of the time guys try to regain it but only lose it more with failed attempts. Most guys after getting their heart broken hide Id away and concentrate on other things such as school, work, or family. Some guys who lose it regain it, but most of the time lose it and never regain it.
The problem with Id? The reputation amoung women. Most women only think Id as guys just trying to get some. The guys whose main goal is to hook up don't have Id. Guys with Id are not guys bragging about who they sleep with or how many numbers they got. Guys with Id use it to meet and get girls to like them. Guys with Id don't have to chase after girls but girls gravitate toward them.
Some guys call it game and some call it confidence. What every it is? I lost it. I am going to the beach tromarrow and hopefully the trip will help me to regain Id. I had it high school and I had it in the begining of college but I have lost it toward the end of college and hope to regain it. If I don't regain it before graduation, I will have a tough time and probably need to travel to find it again.

1 Comments:

Blogger unaveritas said...

Sometimes your ID is nothing but what others make of you. Don't worry what others always think, just live your live and stop worrying about getting a girlfriend. Too many guys put emphasis on having girlfriends, when in all actuality they just want is someone to relax their fear of isolation. Be yourself, don't worry about id. You have it, you've just been thinking about it too much when you go out that it blocks your vision. Need to have a clear vision, have fun, and live life with less worry. You are too good to make this mistake.

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